Becoming Discipline

Kerrie Jones • December 12, 2024

We all have had the experience of wanting to achieve something that we couldn’t quite attain. In fact, many of us are likely pursuing something at this very moment that seems to constantly elude us, and for some of us we don’t understand why we can’t get there. There are a number of possibilities to address the “why?”, however the most obvious answer is, we lack discipline. What’s even more frustrating is when our challenges with discipline are confined to only a few areas in our lives. For example, you may wonder, “how is it that I’m able to do well with achieving my career goals, but I struggle with saving?”. When these questions arise, most of us can easily identify a lack of discipline as the issue; but what exactly is discipline, and how do we get more of it?


Discipline is widely understood to be the quality of maintaining control to achieve a desired outcome, which is at times is easier said than done for most all of us. What’s little understood about discipline is the role of emotions, and the importance of being intimately acquainted with them to get what we really want out of life. Today, most people know very little about emotions; in fact, many of us run from them or dismiss them as something that’s only for women. The truth is that we’re all emotional, and if we fail to understand that, we’re limiting the degree to which we can live fulfilling and enjoyable lives.


We all experience emotions. We get sad, mad, happy, excited, and afraid, even if we don’t express ourselves outwardly. When we fail to recognize our emotions and the behaviors that typically accompany them, we can be driven in all sorts of directions without any regard for wisdom or logic. For example, when someone is happy, they can spend money buying drinks for everyone without having the means to do so, and when they return to their logical state, they may experience regret because they just spent their rent. It’s interesting how within one body two opposing intentions can exist, and one will always win. This is the power of our emotions, and left unattended or ignored, they can destroy everything that we work hard for.


So, what can you do? Know your emotions, attend to your emotions, wait out your emotions, and use emotions to inform wise decisions. The word emotion is synonymous with ‘feeling’. This is because we literally feel our emotions in our body. Often, we talk about “feeling” things, and most of the time we’re talking about beliefs that we think, not what we feel. Some of our feelings are unique, but by and large we feel similarly. For example, when we’re afraid, most of us feel our heart pounding or our stomach dropping, or both. When we’re sad, we feel the tears welling up for a cry. These are feelings. Many of us have developed a habit of suppressing our feelings, thereby suppressing our emotions, and when we do this, both grow to become uncontrollable and our actions follow suit. Suppressed emotions stay in the body and typically result in emotional and physical distress that results in mental health issues and medical disease. When we allow ourselves to feel, it relieves the pressure and makes room for the next emotional experience.


When we attend to emotions, we give attention to ourselves; it can look like showing curiosity about the source of the emotion; so in fear, we may ask ourselves, “what am I actually afraid of?”. This line of inquiry can often resolve the emotion if we come to realize we have nothing to fear. On the other hand, it can provide us with information about the environment around us, and when we take the next step of waiting out our emotions, we can then make wise decisions without regret. Feelings pass. When we give space to our emotions they may wash over us like a wave, and then they’re gone. There are times when we may need to act while in our emotions, like when there’s eminent danger, and in these cases, managing our emotions can be the difference between a stampede that hurts people or moving quickly and orderly, keeping everyone as safe as possible. The key to waiting out emotions is not to speak or act while the emotional experience is present. This keeps us from engaging in behaviors like impulse buying, going off on others, or even excessive drinking, smoking, or drug use. Once the emotion has passed and we return to logic we can use emotions to make informed decisions in the moment for our future.


In essence, discipline is about bridging the gap between logic and emotion. Without emotion, we are likely to make decisions that seem good for us, but possibly bring no enjoyment. In the heat of emotion, decisions only feel good, and usually only in the moment the emotion is present. Wisdom can be found in our emotions, we were given them for a reason, use yours for your benefit.

How to Know If He's Good For You

By Kerrie Hudson • October 20, 2026
Spoiler alert. Let’s get straight to the answer. The way to know if he’s good for you is to take the time to get to know him. I know, I know. Duh, Kerrie. It seems like a simple answer, and I’m certain that getting to know him is exactly what you think you’ve been doing. And yet, if you had actually taken the time to get to know him, how do you keep arriving at the conclusion over and over again that you didn’t know any of them at all? How are you surprised at how it all ended? This answer is also pretty simple: you’ve known who you wanted them to be; you didn’t really know them. Like many women, you’ve likely found yourself certain about a love prospect only to find that you were certainly wrong when it all blew up months, years, maybe even decades later. After a few failures, you’ve either sworn off relationships altogether, or you go into each of them with trepidation, wondering, “How can I be sure this time?” And the answer is, you can’t. Not without significant time spent getting to know this person, and more importantly, getting to know yourself and the mindset that you bring to choosing. Until now, you’ve chosen based on vibes and intensity instead of values and character. You’ve chased the high that swells from a flirtatious exchange or that craveable attention or that look of desire he always gave you. I get it. It felt good. And in the words of my granny, it wasn’t worth a nickel. You placed all of your value on the feels, and you ignored the thing that sticks around long after the spark fades: character. You see, it’s who he is when he’s not giving you excessive attention or spoiling you with things or touching you in a way that drives your body crazy that creates the experience you’ll live with from day to day. And because he was so good at giving you the feels, you excused his behavior and projected onto him the person you wanted, and likely needed him to be in order to make this work. And when the vibes settle and the excuses fade, you’re left with the thing you ignored all along: the truth of who he’s always been. He didn’t trick you. I’m sure he lied and deceived, and that’s on him. And as hard as it may be to receive, you tricked yourself by setting aside your discernment because you wanted what he fed you to be true. And we’re not doing that anymore. If you want to choose well, you’ve got to view well. Set down the rose-colored glasses and put on the clear spectacles that bring things into 20/20 vision. You don’t need to magnify what you see, and you certainly don’t need to diminish it. You just need to see things as they are. Doing that takes time. So, if you’re going to choose well, you need patience. Slow down. I know that love feels urgent. Society places all sorts of pressure on women to get married and start families. But trust me, doing any of that with the wrong man is far worse than you can ever imagine. Churches, families, friends, heck, even strangers add pressure, and you don’t have to succumb to it just because you’re trying to do things the “right way.” At times, your choices can feel very natural, and he can feel right. If he is right, what’s the rush? Really? And maybe you’re asking, “What am I waiting for?” It’s this. The purpose of patience is to give yourself the time to gather information. Who is his family? What are their values (because he isn’t likely to stray too far away from them)? Who are his friends? How does he handle responsibility? Conflict? Disappointment? And most importantly, how do you feel engaging with him in all of these scenarios and more? If you’re going to live a life with him, what are the samples of life revealing to you about his character? Be honest with yourself. There’s no point in engaging in any of these exercises if the goal is to have HIM at all costs. If the goal, however, is to choose a good man, it’s not enough to just see him as he is, it’s being honest with yourself about what you see. Often honesty is replaced with excuses. And to your credit, he’s made it easy for you to lean into them. Before you saw his issues, you heard his explanation for them, which made it easy to excuse poor decision-making and bad behavior. You’ve got a reason for things like interpersonal conflict, estrangement from children, and his life struggles, and he isn’t at the center of any of it. The challenges in his life are all their fault. He sold you the sob story, and you ate it up. Not only are you there in support of him, but you’re on the front lines fighting his battles and working to clean up his messes that he continues to make every time you turn away. Not only have you chosen wrong, you’re now invested, which often leads to significant loss. And again, we’re not doing that anymore. What we are doing is taking the time to get to know ourselves and the reasons for our choices. There is a reason you’ve been choosing the same man over and over again, and this is a cycle that is within your power to break. Because there is a man who’s good for you, and no one will know him other than you. The key is knowing what’s good for you. What do you want? What do you need? And who’s most suitable to give those things to you? In large part, you couldn’t know what was good for you if it knocked on your front door because you didn’t know yourself. You haven’t even known what it means to truly care for yourself beyond meeting your physical needs. This is why it’s been easy to settle for behavior that’s painful. And I want better for you. As I mentioned before, there’s no way to know for certain that he’s right for you without significant evidence. And even with evidence, the key is to become certain about your ability to do what’s best for you, and that requires putting in the work to heal and overcome some things. Because the power and ability to choose what’s best for you have been in you all along. They’ve just been pushed aside by the thing you keep running back to: pain. And we’re healing that.
Woman walking away

Why Do I Stay When I Know I Should Leave?

By Kerrie Hudson • September 15, 2026
You know the relationship is toxic. You know you should leave. So why do you stay? Learn how familiar relationship patterns can keep pulling you back.

Why Do I Defend Someone Who Hurts Me? Understanding Trauma Bonds

By Kerrie Hudson • August 11, 2026
I was reflecting on the relationship I have with my older sister. Well, we don’t have much of a relationship today. Growing up, she was my very first trauma bond. Verbally, she expressed so much love and care, and at the same time, I experienced so much hate at her hands. I loved her. I was loyal to her. I was confused. That’s essentially at the core of a trauma bond. Confusion. And if the trauma bond itself isn’t confusing enough, they can be found everywhere: in churches, families, and especially in love, making them so difficult to detect. When you’ve grown up in a family where you were trauma bonded, then possibly a church or another institution where trauma bonding runs rampant, the dynamic becomes commonplace. In fact, it feels like home, a smelly one. One where visitors detect it, but the people who live there are oblivious. Just like someone who’s invited you into an offensive home, the realization that you’ve been trauma bonding can produce shame. In both situations it’s easy to overlook. Many people do. There’s nothing to do about the past, and taking responsibility for the future is key. But first, the issue at hand. At worst, a smelly home is offensive. But trauma bonds? They hurt. And that pain can go unnoticed for a while. Often, the pain of a trauma bond is first perceived by recognizing its impact on another. In churches, it looks like a pastor or authority figure hurting others while the congregation defends them. Eventually, the protection emboldens more abuse, and the hurt spreads. Some walk away, others continue to endure it because they hold onto the good and reject the bad even though it hurts. That’s the bond at work. In a family, a child defends the parent who hurts the other parent. They don’t understand the dynamic because the abusive parent is kind to them. Eventually as they grow, they are directly targeted and abused. In spite of the pain they feel, they hold on, because it “isn’t that bad”. The child knows two people, one who’s kind, and one who’s abusive. They want to believe the former is the “real them”, while they work to appease the latter, and it grows more intense. Early experiences like these create the mindset that causes you to hope for the best while experiencing the worst instead of walking away. It’s the setup for leaning into love that hurts, until it hurts so much that you eventually have no choice but to walk away. It’s a part of the relational blueprint you developed early that dictates love is supposed to hurt, at least a little; and when you tolerate a little hurt, you will tolerate a lot of it. When the warning signs of a trauma bond are visible to others, the people closest to you can see it; even those who can’t see it in their own relationships. They may not know what it’s called, but they can detect its impact, either now or in the future. If they intervene (and it’s best that they do), their expressions of concern can land as a threat to one of our most basic needs, love. It can also reinforce shame due to the exposure of the truth that you’ve been explaining away or hiding from yourself to make love work. Ultimately, it can lead to isolation and even more pain. For many people, instead of taking the intervention into consideration, they reject it, and often reject the people who love them most. The presence of pain, now or in the future, isn’t a big enough threat because it aligns with what you’ve come to believe love is. So, of course you’ll chase the trauma bond, because this is what “love” has always looked like. Love, or the potential for love, can be blinding to the reality of pain, especially if you’re starting with an unhealthy blueprint. The key is to take an honest look at the blueprint to determine how you got here, and to re-work it so it leads you to real love, not love as you’ve known it, but the love you desperately desire. I know that part of you may be pushing back, because you’ve already tried doing things differently, and it didn’t work. Journaling, listening to podcasts, and even taking the steps to fix your approach or your appearance. None of these are wrong; they are incomplete. You can’t attract something new from an old mindset. What you haven’t yet tried is doing the actual work of healing: exploring the dynamics that led you here, embracing thoughts of new possibilities, and becoming the person who no longer tolerates unhealthy dynamics so she has room for healthy ones. That’s the work. If you’re ready to do the work, The Restoration Group is where it happens. You learn the signs of abuse, and more importantly you’ll learn to detect it, to feel it in your body, to trust yourself. You’ll explore the difficulties of your attachment style and relationship dynamics and rework them to healthier ways of relating. The most important work we do is restoring the relationship with yourself, because if you don’t love you, you’ll reject anyone who does. Join this powerful group of women as they become the women they never imagined they could be. The next cohort begins this Thursday, August 13 th . After that, there’s only one more opportunity to do this work for the rest of the year. Register now.